22nd feb 09

okay so i just read through some peoples blogs, inspired me really.

so, here's a proper blog and maybe you will not think i am just a moany moaner, ha
oh mona the vampire <3 i used to watch that after school with milk and biscuits, and 8 simple rules, really good until abc got taken off freeview! bad times

anyway so, i guess school is kind of stressful but Lenin is fun, and although i have probably flopped that exam i can retake and i know i can do it, plus all my work i have to do is totally doable?must. stop. stressing.

drinking, i am finding is getting a little boring, i am just really enjoying being a weirdo with my friends, there hasn't been enough dancing and laughing in my life lately and i really need some! there has been a little sneaky sneaking into my life but i would love more!

i feel like i need to do something so, i guess im gonna book my theory and try and do that, look into holiday and see if i can afford it, but if i cant its not the end of the world, i will just do something weird instead, maybe visit family or, who knows, its fine. anyway, i need to look into uni and finance, its all very exciting frankly, and grown up. i cant wait to meet new people and decorate my room and be in total control, although it will be really scary and i'll probably cry and be on facebook to all my friends "NOBODY LIKES ME, I'M TOO WEIRD, I CAN'T COPE!!". but i need to learn how to work the dishwasher and a washing machine ha.

i always want to dye my hair, but maybe i will actually do it this weekend
and start straightening it
i think it looks nicer like that... and normally i am too lazy, i will give it whirl and we'll see
i've been experimenting with my eye make up lately, i want to learn how to do smokey eyes, or like effy off skins, v. cool.

vroom, i wanna drive but its scary.
oh god, why why why. why!!!! okay seriously, why would you choose to drive like a dangerous arsehole? i know speed is fun yeh its cool... but your not just responsible for your life, theres others people, could you be more selfish? crashing is horrible, why would you want to do it to yourself, imagine how guilty you would feel if you killed someone, or drink driving? just ergh, makes me feel sick!

i want technology to work, i want a camera cos i broke mine, and my sewing machine fails on me all the time(maybe that is just me though), and my laptop died r.i.p, and the internet is gay naughty connection, my phone is okay but i have to put it on speakerphone to hear you but mr ipod <3 such a good boy. i would like a tv though, just so i can watch dvds in my room allllll the time.

i would seriously love a job, i really miss woolworths and the people that work there. i miss wednesday nights and saturday mornings, i do not miss friday nights though, that has been a sneaky treat of being made redundant.

mmm, im going to try and keep a happy head on this week. i am going to look out for all the small things that are good and nice like puppies and small compliments.

i will try that this week and let you know how it goes.
oh god im going to hell i just killed a moth ick.